Last night I had to face a lot of things. One of those things was the possibility that my own anxieties and fears were holding back labor. While I truly believe the Lord is in control, I also know that He may very well be waiting on me to rid myself of some of the emotional baggage I am carrying around. I had a good cry and I awoke this morning with a much better outlook on the day.
My usual advice to end of term pregnant women is to find a project, make an appointment, do something that requires you to put energy into something other than sitting around thinking. Somehow, I managed to not hold myself to the same standards. So, this morning, after dreaming last night that I had rearranged my house, I decided to do something along those same lines. I tore into the bags of Christmas presents that were just sitting near the tree waiting for me to come home from the hospital and deal with them. I’m obviously NOT in the hospital and I’m obviously in need of a project, so why not. I worked most of the morning separating the gifts out and having the children put things away and making lists of what types of storage containers I would need and mentally considering what items already residing in our home could hit the trash or the thrift store. Then, I took a nap!
My dear, sweet husband is considering different things we can do to get out of the house after he gets home from work (especially since we have a built-in babysitter these days…otherwise known as Grandma!) And I am concentrating on staying away from negative thoughts and controlling the overall grouchiness that seems to be plaguing me these days.
I did ask the Lord to take away all these false contractions if possible simply because I kept feeling as though I was getting my hopes up for nothing. Well, He’s done just that. I am having very few contractions now, so hopefully, once they kick back in, it will be the real deal.
Tomorrow is the OB appointment I never thought I’d make it to. I have no idea what to expect because I’ve never been this overdue and none of us truly believed I would make this appointment. So, we shall see.
Lynnette Kraft says
Have patience. Have patience. Don’t be in such a hurry. When you get – impatient – you always start to worry. Remember. Remember. That God has patience too. And think of all the times when others have to wait on you! 🙂 HA HA HA!!!!YOU ARE DOING GREAT! I just had to ‘sing’ that song my momma always sang to me as a child. It seems so appropriate in your situation. hee (Don’t kill me, okay?)We ARE PRAYING and are VERY excited to meet little ??? (but I know you are more excited!).Love,Lynnette
Anonymous says
praying for you daily. I was 10 days late with K. And she had NO plans of going anywhere…LOL! My doc induced 10 days past my due date and I had the easiest labor and healthiest baby yet!Love ya,Laney
Anonymous says
I’m sorry you’ve gone over. I’ve had 4 overdue babies and it’s very hard! This past time I was 13 days, one more day and I wouldn’t have been able to deliver in the natural birthing center where I go. My others 2 were 10 days late and 13 again. One was born a day after his due date. The hard part for me was seeing so many other ladies go early. Maybe it’s not an issue for you. I know what you mean about eye contact. Avoid it at all costs. 🙂 Don’t forget that those “false contractions” are doing something. 🙂 perhaps this will be your easiest labor & delivery yet? The Lord bless you! Pam http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/stillearning/
Lilyofthevalley - Tanya says
Sounds like you are on the right track! Enjoy the time you and your husband can have alone in the evening! Will keep praying too.
Anonymous says
I know just what you are going through. Last December I was 12 days overdue with #4. All the other new moms at church I always reminded to not focus too much on the due date and think instead of 2 weeks past their due date. I didn’t take my own advice and was very cantankerous. I am praying for you as I know how exhausting and emotionally draining it is to think you are in labor only to have it fizzle out. Christina
DoulaJo says
Just want you to know that I’m thinking and praying for you and your family. I love the song that Lynnette ‘sang’ for you. We still sing that to our children as well! I do believe in my heart that there is a reason for your “extended gestation”. 🙂 Give your fears to God and He’ll see that your sweet boy comes at the time the Lord has already determined for him. Rest in His arms and enjoy this time as much as you can. Love ya, Jo
Fruitful Harvest says
I think you anwswered some things your self..holding back because of fear. I did that with delivery #5.I think God is taking you through a process. When this is all over you will see more things you can’t see now…hinsight is 20/20.Enjoy the time with your Hubby! If you do opt for induction I think you will go fast! Blessings and Prayer,Georgiann
hsmominmo says
Thinking of you today! All my boys were a week overdue. Longest weeks of my life! But all these years later, I hardly remember. You have made good choices, and working hard to let the Lord lead you through this. Looking forward to a birth announcement soon!
Stephanie says
You are NOT overdue. The Lord is never early or late. Always right on time. Enjoy spending some time with Hubby before everything happens. I’m just wondering…….if you’re not cooking, what DID you have for lunch?? LOL.
Lisa says
I have been praying for you and checking daily for “the” update. God is just giving you a blessing of a couple of days alone with your husband before the new blessing arrives – what a treat!
Tosha Tanquary says
We are excited to hear your news about the baby’s arival…and hoping it comes soon! I remember those days towards the end of pregnancy when you can’t wait to hold your little one in your arms and gives kisses and snuggle…. golly I miss that!!! hang in there… we are praying for you all!!!The Tanquarys