After we brought Baby #4 (who just happens to be the little guy in the picture above) home in January of 2006, I sat on my couch and stared into nothingness, thoroughly overwhelmed and wondering what I had done. Every routine, every cleaning schedule, every aspect of my life suddenly stopped working. I felt inept and unable to do anything about it.
That’s when I became a quitter.
First to hit the chopping block was the time I spent outside the home. Prior to Keian’s birth, I had been involved in 4 different homeschool groups, taking field trips and attending meetings for each of them. I realized I could not keep that pace. I quit 3 of those groups. However, I did not pour that extra time and energy into the remaining group. I poured it into my time spent at home with the children.
The next thing I quit was my cloth diapering business. What had begun as a fun venture with a friend was quickly becoming an exhausting chore. I found I was spending time and money I didn’t have. I was selling one diaper only to buy fabric of equal value (if not more). My piles of fabric and unfinished projects made me cringe every time I walked by them. In addition, I found the old adage of “the cobbler’s kids go with shoes,” had become “the diaper maker’s kids go without diapers.” I had no time to sew for my own household because there was always one more product to promote or one more order to fill. I felt confined and bogged down. So, I quit.
From there I quit many other things that overwhelmed me and kept me from doing the job I needed to be doing at home. I methodically worked my way away from simply “parenting” and back to “mothering.” I re-prioritized and re-grouped. Quitting was essential to finding my way home.
As a mother, have you ever thought about what your goals are? Have you weighed your day against those goals? Do they balance? Is there something in your life that has become a chore? Are you overwhelmed by something? Are you hindered from being the mother you need to be?
“Winners never Quit, Quitters never Win,”
isn’t entirely true.
I am a quitter and I am winning by making this decision.