Yep, that’s me.
I breastfeed, cloth diaper, eat whole grains, buy organic, drink raw milk, use herbs, and generally stay far, far away from medical intervention. In fact, I can count on one hand the number of times our family has been to a doctor (outside of the OB’s office) this year and last year combined. Not that I hate doctors–some of my favorite people just happen to be doctors by trade–but I do prefer to treat as best as I can at home before running to the doctor’s office for an antibiotic or some such thing.
So, WHY would I choose to go to an OB to have my babies when I could homebirth with a midwife–or at the very least, birth in a free-standing clinic with a midwife?
It all comes down to a simple phrase a dear La Leche League leader said to me as she helped me work through the trauma of my first c-section:
In 2000, I sought out a particular doctor specifically because I had heard she had a fantastic VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean) rate. I dearly wanted a VBAC and she was confidant I could do it. Sure enough, 2.5 yrs after my first child was born via emergency c-section, we welcomed baby #2 via VBAC. It was a beautiful experience–and a healing one.
After that, I had very little desire to go to anyone else. I was connected to my doctor through the thick thread of birthing success. I was having the best births I could have and I couldn’t imagine going to anyone else.
And then it happened…
My doctor decided she would no longer be delivering babies. I was devastated….to put it mildly.
By this point, we had shared 2 miscarriages, 4 live births, the death of my daughter, and I was in the middle of my pregnancy with Micah. Looking back, I am so very thankful the last baby she delivered was the child that brought such healing to our family following our daughter’s death. The birth was traumatic and I wouldn’t have wanted someone who didn’t know our grief to have delivered him.
So, the search begins…
I have no expectations. I shared a decade with this doctor. Is there even the hint of a possibility that I could find something similar somewhere else? I doubt it. But, I’ll make a good effort. I’m setting up some appointments to meet other doctors. (honestly, I feel like a dork doing this…how do you judge a doctor in 30 minutes?)
Would I ever consider homebirth at this point? No. It just isn’t in the cards for me. And I’m okay with that. I’m old enough now and have had enough children to know what I want and be pushy enough to get it…even in a hospital.
So, really, this search for a new obstetrician is all about me…and having the best birth I can have!