You have probably noticed I haven’t been around. There hasn’t been a new post on the blog in over 2 weeks and it was a guest post. I haven’t been updating pregnancy status – other than this Instagram post 2 weeks ago:
“Are you having triplets?” “Are you overdue?” “You are the biggest bellied pregnant woman I have ever seen!” Just a few of the comments and questions from my weekend. I keep telling myself people mean well and have no idea what a struggle this pregnancy has been for me, but really, the only thing anyone should ever say to a pregnant woman is, “You look beautiful!” #6weeksout #lordhelpmebitemytongue #pregnant #baby10
(Can’t see it? Click here!)
Even my Facebook page has been scarce and scattered. There are a couple of reasons for this…
- I cannot sit up for very long, so typing (and thinking, for that matter) require too much effort.
- I just don’t feel like opening up about much to anyone.
You see, I spend most of my days in bed and in quite a bit of pain. I used to think bed rest was kind of glamourous. I was wrong. I watch a lot of mind-numbing shows via the internet, and I sleep. There’s not much to write about there even if I could sit up long enough to churn out some great post.
Additionally, I just don’t feel like talking or explaining much of anything…even here. I am quite used to sharing about my life and getting lots of advice and suggestions, filtering them, responding to them, etc. But, feeling the way I do right now has left me rather drained. As an INFJ, that means I choose to withdraw and retreat.
Unless my c-section date gets moved up, I have 29 days left before we finally get to meet this little one – and I am beyond excited for that day! For months now, I’ve been ready to hold this baby in my arms and not be pregnant anymore. I love my children fiercely, but the getting them here is not really my cup of tea. Pregnancy is never an easy task for me, and this time has been especially difficult. I like to be upbeat and encouraging, so updating here on the blog hasn’t seemed like the thing to do. I can be raw and brutally honest, but I’m not sure how helpful that is to anyone. So, bear with me while I bide my time and wait (not so patiently) for the arrival of this precious baby.
I do have a few posts I plan on putting out in the next month, so I won’t be completely silent, but I will apologize in advance for not answering many questions or emails. And now it is time for me to lie back down and dream of the day when this blog will liven back up with a plethora of baby photos!