“O Death, where is your sting? O Hades, where is your victory?”
This story really touched my heart today…
“In the summertime when the grass in the lower valleys withers and dries up, the shepherds seek to lead their sheep up a winding, throny, and stony pathway to the high grazing lands. The sheep, reluctant to take the difficult pathway infested with dangers and hardships, turn back and will not follow. The shepherds make repeated attempts, but the timid sheep will not follow. Finally, a shepherd reaches into the flock and takes a little lamb and places it under his arm…Then he stars up the precipitous pathway. Soon the mother sheep start to follow and afterward the entire flock. At last they ascend the torturous trail to green pastures.”
~from Death of a Little Child
I pray that others follow b/c little Emmy led the way.
I miss her so much. In fact, the pain is so much more acute than it was in those first days. I feel it deeper and stronger and with more clarity than I did a month ago. But, I am also able to feel the happy moments w/ more clarity than I did before.
It’s as if the Lord shielded us from the full extent of the hurt by clouding our vision…the “fog” I spoke of several weeks back. And as this fog lifts, He allows us to feel the pain, but He also gives us a more vivid picture of beauty to go along with it.
In fact, the weather we are experiencing here today is a perfect illustration…It is bitterly cold today, but the sun is shining bright. Despite the pain we feel, the Lord is still shining mercy and love on us. Though we are chilled to the bone, we have hope of warmth in days to come.
So, yes, we are hurting. And often it is a desperate hurt. A hurt that makes me feel as if I’ll never be okay. The tears are never far from the surface. And there are many, many times I see, or think, or feel something that takes my breath away for a moment because the pain is so overwhelming. Because of this, my beautiful, sweet baby girl is never far from mind…and in many ways I am thankful for that.
God bless you all this Resurrection Day.